I couldn't help myself, and just cried. I told Brian I was ready to stop, and didn't care. The tears streaming down my face said otherwise. The words were just my way of trying to hide my insecurities and fear though. I know the scale is not the best judge of progress, it's just the most convenient. But knowing that in my heart doesn't mean my head wants to listen. I do care. I am not content to stop here. But this mental game is hard. So much harder than the work.
♦Weight Loss the Game - Mental Edition♦
Object: Lower the number you see each time you step on the scale.
Strategy: Expend more calories than you consume. For every 3500 calorie deficit, you will lose one pound.
Tools: Exercise, nutritional labels on foods, willpower. **
Players: 1 **
Winning the game: Set your sights on a goal, and actually make it there.
** other tools available, though not always used, include: friends, family, huge support networks. People with these tools in place tend to do better than others. As such, playing this game with someone else will increase your ability to play, and ultimately win, thus making this a multi-player game if done correctly.
New in this edition - To make the game more interesting, we've included the most difficult option we could come up with! We like to call it, "Your HEAD!" If you can overcome your HEAD and still manage to lose weight, fabulous. Please remember your HEAD will throw things at you that are difficult to surpass - fear of failure, lack of self-worth, doubt, just to name a few.
Reviews for ♦Weight Loss the Game - Mental Edition♦
"Whoa! This game was intense. I was plodding along, doing great, when out of left field, my HEAD got in the way. Made it hard to want to play anymore."
"Intense. How people overcome your HEAD still is a mystery to me. I haven't finished the game yet."
"Weight Loss the Game - Mental Edition is so much harder than I had expected. It's 99.8% about overcoming your HEAD, and .02% about doing the work. "
I am still plodding along though. I want so much more than 235. I have to break it, instead of letting it break me. So I ran this morning, even though I didn't want to. I pushed it hard, even though I didn't want to. Because though I didn't want those things, I DO want what they will get me. So even though I don't like them today, I am using them to get me what I want.
For me, this is where it ends today. Call it self preservation if you will. I know I am.
*I apologize for the "poor me" post today, especially to Heidi. I hate feeling like I am raining on her HUGE victory post. I just can't beat this broken feeling today. I fully expect to be back to my ass kicking ways soon. ♥