- to place in doubt, perplexity, or difficulties
- to cause to experience a state of self-conscious distress
- to become anxiously self-conscious
welcome to my life.
Yesteday I was so gung-ho. I was going to get on the scale and *gulp* actually post my starting weight. It seemed so easy when it was "tomorrow." Tomorrow wasn't now, wasn't something I had to worry about. But then a little something sneaky called time happened, and *poof* tomorrow is RIGHT NOW. I am still focused on moving in the right direction. I know I am going to have detours and triumphs. That part I am not worried about.
The part I am worried about is "what's everyone going to think?" And I shouldn't be. I can't go get back on the scale now and have it say something different. Tomorrow I might be able to (there's that tomorrow word again) but there's not a magic pill that will make it happen now.
So while I do still plan on posting my starting weight, I don't have the courage to do it here, yet. But I will. Because it's only going to get smaller. And I am only going to get smaller.
On a happy note -
Yesterday I did an exercise dvd that is a really great workout for me. It's called Pick Your Level: Fat to Fit Fast. I really do enjoy it. In the throes of doing it, I hate it with every fiber of my being. But when I am done, I feel good. And more importantly, I feel proud of myself!
This morning when I woke up, I was S.O.R.E. But a good sore. And I didn't let it stop me. I did 32 minutes on the treadmill, keeping a 3.3mph speed. And coughed
up a lung my head off since I still have a bit of a cold. But I did something.
In the words of Disney's Meet the Robinsons - KEEP MOVING FORWARD!