The One Where I Own it

Ugh.  Here goes nothing.

260.  That's my starting weight.


Oh, a little too small you say?  Fine, have it your way.  260.  That's my starting weight.  Not proud of it, but it is what it is.  I need to own it.  I think that's a big step for me.  Not pretending it's something else, something lower.

I plan on posting pictures when I can get someone to take them for me.  I don't trust the photography skills of my 4 year old.  Call me crazy. I want to have something to look back on, to see how far I've come.

As a side note, my sister is here.  In my former life, I would have let the fact that I have company 1. be my excuse to not exercise (can't let any one know I am working on losing weight, ya know) 2. derail my eating (I am a KICKASS cook if I do say so myself, just not fabulous at cooking healthy entrees all the time) and 3. derail me completely - since I wasn't exercising or eating better, why bother at all.  NOT THIS TIME!  I made a healthy green chili for supper last night, will make baked chicken nuggets and baked squash tonight.

After I got done on the treadmill, she got on to do her workout.  I almost let watching her derail me.  She's a lot faster than I am - by at least 0.5mph, and then she does sprints too. But this time, I am letting her be something I aspire to be.  She's been going to the gym and working out for awhile, does kick boxing, etc.  She's  also a LOT lighter than I am.  So I will get there one day.  Maybe she and I will be able to do a 5k together, and not walk, and I will be able to keep up with her.  No, not maybe.  We will!  Just need to figure out when and how.